I don't know if it's the warmer weather and sunshine, all the sleep that we're getting now that Kaylin regularly sleeps though the night, or the fact that she is just growing up--but life with my toddler has been pretty wonderful lately.I can't even remember the last time Kaylin had a full-blown tantrum. Most of the time she is a happy, smiling, singing cutie-pie who just makes my heart glow. She says the funniest things like "Mom, can you do me a favourite?" or wishes me a "happy birthday" even though my birthday is months away. She spends hours singing her favourite songs and nursery rhymes, pretending to be Strawberry Shortcake or Dora the Explorer, reading "Handsome and Gretel" with me, and having picnics complete with "watermelon soup" on the living room floor.
When Kaylin was an infant, learning to talk and walk, I used to look at her and get an overwhelming feeling of pride and love that would wash over me and take my breath away. Everytime the feeling struck, it almost brought me to tears. That's the only way I can describe it. But I haven't had the feeling for many months. I thought maybe it was something you only feel when you're a new mom, like the first months of falling in love. The overpowering sensations you feel when you see that person fade to a deep love over time. It's not that you love them any less. Just that the "newness" has worn off. I thought maybe the "newness" of my baby had warn off.
But lately, I'm having that feeling again. The things Kaylin says and does astound me and move me. I'm so proud of the person she's becoming--her incredible and witty sense of humour, her compassion for other people, especially babies, and her creative imagination. I still can't believe this amazing person calls me "mom". How lucky am I?
3 comments:
Kaylin could only have a wonderful imagination, sense of humor & personality. She is the best parts of both her parents. She is such a happy little soul. Big Hugs to all...
Debbie
I will tell you something Char. That parental glow never really goes away. I am sure there are times when it is tested, and strained, but I will tell you as a 36 year old kid, I still find the odd time where I catch my Mom looking at me in the same Mom Way you are describing here.
Though, it should be said that I am a jackass, so those glances come less often than they will with Kaylin. You're much luckier than my Mom ;)
I admit that I am very, very jealous. We are full on into the Terrible Two's in our house. There are fleeting moments of the sweet, sunshine-filled baby girl of the past, but they seem to be getting fewer and further between. I am glad to hear that the glow does come back though - it gives me hope.
I know you'll soon have your hands even fuller, but I hope you'll be able to keep up with the blog Char - I love to read your words.
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